lisa

move over!

2010-04-18T12:30:00.000+08:00

well.
i've decided.

i've moved.

2010-02-26T21:00:00.002+08:00

well. i guess i'm not that important anymore.
i should have known it from the start.

they say that absence makes the heart grows fonder.
but i guess i've just been proven wrong.

anyways.
recess break is officially here!
need to use this time to catch up on work.
and trainings.

btw, had an evaluation yesterday.
felt accomplished (:
managed to meet my objectives.
even though i wasn't as good as the rest, at least i didn't disappoint myself.

okays.
i'm feeling damn tired now.
my feet are aching from the fieldtrip today.
will write again soon.
i hope.

hate this!

2010-02-17T21:01:00.001+08:00

sniff sniff. cough.

sniff sniff. cough.

sniff sniff. cough.

this really sucks.
argh!

btw, i think i'm moving.
from here, that is.

and ...

2010-02-16T00:35:00.003+08:00

and now, i guess i know where i stand.

just like with everything else, .....

i shouldn't even be feeling this way

sobs

2010-02-14T21:06:00.002+08:00

and i read from my bestie's blog telling me not to be pathetic on fb.

this is the first time i've cried a lot after a very long time.
the friendship really means alot to me.
but now, i just don't know what's happening.

well, i just wish that .....

super long weekend! ((:

2010-02-12T11:27:00.003+08:00

well, i love long weekends! (:

usually, my weekends start on a Friday since that's my off day from school.
but i'm especially loving this weekend!
cos the CNY is extending my 'holiday' by a few days! ((:

and i realised that my modules on Wednesday are all on e-learning mode.
so that means my weekend starts today and ends on Wednesday!
yey-ness!! ((:

okays.
im just excited about this fact.
heh.

anyways.
i can't wait for later!
meeting up with my babes!
double yey-ness! ((:

Fifteen ...

2010-02-01T12:57:00.003+08:00

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try to stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
You know I haven't seen you around, before

Cause when you're fifteen and
Somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like
There's nothing to figure out
Well count to ten, take it in, this is life before you know
Who you're gonna be
At fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be out of here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date
And he's got a car and you're feeling like flying
And your mama's waiting up and you're thinkin' he's the one
And you're dancing round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

Cause when you're fifteen and
Somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin around but
In your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
but I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind
And we both cried

Cause when you're fifteen and
Somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be, at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

this song has been playing in my head for the past few days.
noooo...
i'm not a die-hard fan of taylor swift.
i just find her songs listen-able.

but anyways.
when i listened to this song, i kind of reflected on what happened when I was fifteen.
I was still a (quite) innocent student. well, i still am. haha.
it was the year when i got new classmates cos we were streamed into the different classes for Sec 3.
and it also was the year when most of us behaved crazily and irritated most of the teachers.

i felt that that year was the most fun one.
went for alot of camps. cos i was chosen as a camp instructor.
and of cos, the best camp was OBS! (:

that was when i met D.
the boy i fell in love with. haha.
(he's a chinese, btw).
and i have to agree with the song.
that at this age when someone tells you they love you, you tend to believe it.
he once told me that his love for me was unconditional.
i guess it was true at that point of time.
i had wished that it is still true. sigh.

oh wells.
it's already 2010!
and February is here! ((:
can't wait for tuition today.
cos the mom insists on making payments for tuition today.
i guess the mom is sensible and nice!
i just wish the son would put in more effort.

okays.
back to concentrating in class ((:

...

2010-01-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

i've been meaning to blog.
but somehow, i find myself not doing so.

school has been quite okay for me.
i guess the overwhelming feeling of having too many things to complete has not got to me yet.
just felt super tired this week.
reached sch at ard 7+ every day of the week.
but felt quite accomplished this week.
managed to hit the gym (which is rarely used) and do some workout (:

there's just too many things that i want to say.
but i just can't pen it down nw.
sigh.

oh wells.
will blog again real soon.
nights! (:

do you appear just to disappear?

tmr's thursday! (:

2010-01-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

can't wait for tmr.
to be over, that is!
since it's the last day of the school week.
heh.

am supposed to be doing tutorials nw.
but have not gotten round to doing it.
grrr.
tmr's first lesson at 830 again.
so early! ):

anw tuition has started again.
heart pain with the kids.
sigh.

but anyways.
did something today.
that i've wanted to do for a long time! (:

will blog again sooon!
nights (:

happy (belated) new year!

2010-01-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

okays.

so i haven't been updating much.
here's wishing everyone Happy New Year!! (:
may this year brings in alot of luck and happiness.

this week is the first week of school.
qutie shagged.
especially on tues.
ended at 730pm! ):
luckily, i have an off-day on friday.
i like (:

anyways.
hope to meet up with lava and alf sooooooon!
i miss them loads ):
missing lots of the other besties too.

okays.
need to eat dinner and revise.
830 class tmr.

nights! (:

and you're the only reason for me

my first ever accident!

2009-12-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

so i met with an accident on Wednesday.
was quite shocking for me.
never thought i'll be in that situation.
but it was a minor one.
(and before you asked, it wasn't caused by me!)

i guess it was quite stupid.
was driving down the (circular) slope at the multi-storey carpark.
at minimal speed of 10km/h.
when all of a sudden, this car rammed into mine!
(the slope is a one-way lane, if you don't know).

was super pissed at the stupid driver.
how can he not see (or know) that the slope was a downward one?
there was a no entry sign there.

but luckily, he did not 'run' away.
and he suggested that he would compensate.
the car was hit from the front and fortunately, it was not dented badly.

i'm sending the car tmr to the workshop he usually go to.
the boss was quite nice and can get the job done in less than a day.
so i'm quite happy with that.

oh wells.
i hope that this is my first and last ever accident!
dont want to be in this situation again.

okays.
write again sooon.
i'm missing my babes! (:

updates! (:

2009-12-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

so i've been a short (or long, maybe) hiatus!
haha.

well firstly, went to Penang for a race.
a new race site.
but it's bad.
still prefer the dam.
went with NTU this time around.
alot of bonding sessions (:

the downside, however, was getting food poisoning on the last night! ):
after eating seafood for team dinner.
damn irritating.
was puking during the bus ride back the next day.
and going to the toilet at every stop to clear the bowels.
but i love the people!
they were so helpful and comforting <3

got back to singapore after 4 days.
i looked burnt.
weather there was damn, damn, damn hot!
if you think singapore is hot, you should head there and try!
haha.

tuition started again, soon after.
i wish that the kid would put in more effort and not be so lazy!
always forgets to complete the homework and all.
grrr.

but anyways.
went for some shopping (and bill-paying, of course).
felt happy! ((:
cos usually i'll be feeling sad in December.
for there'll be all the sales and i'll be penniless.
and for this year, i'm not!
so i'm estatic! ((:

gave parents more moolahs than usual.
bought my mom the Scholl sandals (that i've promised her since two years back. hah).
bought a new wallet.
bought somethingS else.

and guess what?
i got myself an iPhone!!!!!
yey-ness.
haha.
well, stupid HTC decided to die on me just like that.
so it was a good opportunity to get the phone that i've been wanting! (:
i'm elated.

oh.
just got my results for the semester a few moments ago.
and i passed everything! ((:
no As though. sigh.
but then, there's no Ds too!!
well, i'm quite satisfied with this.
i'm planning on working hard for the next sem! (:

okays.
i'm tired from typing too much too fast.
shall update sooooonest! (:

why am i afraid of doing smth that i am not good at?

my december

2009-12-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

yey!
december is finally here! (:

lots of stuffs coming up.
and hopefully, more money too!
haha.

meeting up with the old friends.
and of course, with the gang (lava, alf and pn!) (:
yey-ness.
can't wait for all this.

and going away to Penang on the 10th.
second time in a year!
haha.
this time, with Phoenix! (:

i'm done with the project today.
went quite ok.
though i think the kids do not really appreciate what we did.
they didn't really like the activities.
cos they are required to do some work, instead of roaming around.
but nonetheless, i think my group got closer (:

sometimes i wonder if i'm being too sensitive.
or if i'm not at all sensitive to others' feelings.
i try really hard to understand what others are going through.
but sometimes, it just seems that i dont try hard enough.
sigh.

anyways.
i'm eating carrot cake right now.
it's so darn nice! (:
nicer than the ones at banquet.
yey-ness!!

lesser time spent together does not change anything, if you do not want it to

hopefully ...

2009-11-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

well.
tmr is the day when my GESL group will be carrying out our activities.
hopefully, everything will go smoothly!

however, i was quite disappointed.
after so much planning for the best activities, the group had to stick to Plan Z?
first, we had fencing n all. all sponsored for.
last minute, the company said they cant do it.
and wanted to postpone.
so in the end, we didnt want to take it up cos we don want to postpone.

the next bad thing was that the group didnt have enough funds?
was quite upset abt this part.
cos actually, i made an effort to try to join the competition in school to win the prize money.
everyone was like: ok! can!
on the day itself, everyone fly kite.
wth.
and nw, everyone must pay $18 for the activities.
quite pissed.
zzz.

but anyways.
december is coming! (:
a month where there's a lot of sales and bargains.
and where usually i get to catch up with the besties! (:
hopefully, i get to meet up with my (ex-working place) babes!
before lava flies off for aussie and peina for US (and wont get to see her for two years!).
of course, alf needs to spend time with her hubby too! heh.

okays.
i guess that's it for nw! (:

need some love from the gfs! <3

am i?

2009-11-29T15:27:00.002+08:00

went to JB yesterday.
was quite fun!
though didnt spend alot of time there.
didnt have alot of money to spend too =x

went to visit my granny at my uncle's place.
then, went to the night market before coming back to SG.
my uncle was asking me to drive!
but of course, my dad said no.
tsktsk.
like, i nv drive in JB before.

when we were coming back, there was no jam at all at the Malaysian Customs.
but at the Singapore, it was the absolute worst.
was stuck there for almost an hour.
when they checked our car, i felt that the guy was quite rude?
he asked my dad if there are cigarettes.
my dad said that he's not a smoker.
then the guy came over to the front and start checking the 'glove box' and the front compartment.
so, whatever.

today, woke up late.
yey-ness! (:

anyways.
nowadays, i don't know why.
but i felt like i don't really belong in any of my besties' life anymore?
it's like i don't fit in anymore.
it's either they are busy with school/work or busy with their own lives.
n i am not part of any of it.
sigh.

oh.
i'm broke too!
really.
like there's no need to spend for tmr.
haha.

okays.
shall go have lunch for now! (:

Is the world ever fair?

2009-11-28T12:30:00.002+08:00

Firstly, Salam Aidiladha to the muslim babes! (:

we went over to my dad's sister's hse.
(of course, my sis didn't go. long story. but i guess she don't really care abt her family anymore.)
spent the later part of the day there.
ate some hari raya dishes, though i think my mom's the best!
hahaha.

chatted with the cousins.
and just slack around.
but my cousins are all way older than me.
so sometimes, not on the same frequency.
haha.
don't really have anything to say to the grandmom though.
tsktsk.

i guess i'll be going over to my mom's side today.
to visit my grandma.
she's staying in JB with one of my uncles.
but it's only going to be me and mom.
how sad right?
my sis is out with the bloody friends.
my dad refused to go.
cos he wants to entertain his mom! ):

i feel like it's damn unfair.
yest, all of us went to visit his mom.
but today, he don even want to visit his mom-in-law.
wth.
sometimes, i really dislike my dad for this.

i wish, just sometimes wish, that my dad wont be such a pain when it comes to this.
):

lalala..

2009-11-25T17:15:00.002+08:00

so this week marks the start of my holidays! (:
(last wednesday actually, after my paper. but who cares?)

last weekend was spent mostly at the Singapore River.
the annual Singapore River Regetta Race.
didn't really stay for long as we were rushing off to study.
(not me, though. just the rest of the team. heh)
we got 2nd for IVP (:

went to ICA on monday.
to collect the new passport.
felt that it was really time-wasting.
but i had to get it by that day.
even though an appointment was set up, i had to wait for about half an hour before the queue number was called. (so much for shorter waiting time).
then, after my number was called, i realised i didn't bring the old passport! ):
so the woman said that i cant get my passport at all.
and i had to get back to my hse to get the passport.
was totally pissed off that day, seriously.

tuesday was spent doing tuition and going to Popular.
retail-therapy by myself.
haha.
bought pens and markers at cheaper prices! (:

today, gave tuition.
bought some groceries for my mom.
and now, here i am.
fasting today, so i felt abit drained.

oh.
i saw Sir Hafiz on FB and realised that he just got married!
haha.
and the funny thing is that the moment i saw the gown on his wife, i know i've seen it before.
on who?
ALFIAH!
hehe.
it was the exact same one that alf wore for her dinner laaa.
it's funny can.
but at the same time, i felt that Alf wore the original one and the rest are just like copy versions?
i dunno.
i think dressmakers shd make a dress that is specific for a bride and not use it for others.
hmmm.

ok.
enough of my rantings.
shall go get some rest.
the head is throbbing!
grrrr.

celebration!

2009-11-20T21:20:00.002+08:00

so i'm done with papers, essays and projects!
yey! (:

this calls for a celebration.
only that i haven really celebrate it.
haha.
so nw it's time to slack.

anw got the emails to say that i pass both my extra english modules!
woohoooo! (:

okays.
having a race tmr.
guess i'll go watch some korean drama and slp after that! (:

just one more!

2009-11-16T16:27:00.002+08:00

so i'm done with my first two papers today.
sitting for the third (and also, the last!) on Wednesday.
it's THE maths paper.
hopefull i'll do well enough for it!

but anyways.
i can't wait for it to be over!
so i can meet up with some friends.
need to organise myself and do some plannings.
so much to do, so little time.
tsktsk.

life hasn't really been filled with roses lately.
negative thoughts and feelings.
unpleasant situations and stuffs.
sigh.

oh well.
life has its ups and downs right?

i need to get back to mugging.
hope i don die on wed!

liberation. sort of.

2009-11-06T22:04:00.002+08:00

wheeee!

i'm done with all the assignments for the semester!
yey! ((:

did my last essay last night.
stayed up till 3 am to finish it up and check it.
and guess what?
the essay was almost plaigarism-less.
only 1%!!!
i was sooooo happy.
it may not mean much.
but i felt that it was worth it to stay up for many nights (:

now i feel like a burden has been lifted off.
yey-ness!

but then, tests and exams coming up.
so i'm off to studying!

back! (:

2009-11-04T22:15:00.002+08:00

was on hiatus.

busy with assignments n all!
had 3 presentations in 3 days.
2 essays due.
and 1 test!

argh.

almost died.
but i managed to survive.
i still need to stay alive till friday!

anyways.
disappointment sets in once again.
i failed the test that i was sooooooooooooooooooooo expecting to pass.
i had a good feeling abt it (even after i sprained my ankle).
when i saw the results on monday, i felt like crying.
even though the tears wont come out.
i felt like my hopes are dashed.
i dunno if i still want to do it again.
or not.

no pain, no gain aye?

the stinging feeling in the eyes...

2009-10-22T15:55:00.002+08:00

this week has been quite a hard one for me.
despite the fact that there was a holiday on Monday.

tmr is the day that will determine whether i will be able to change the course.
hopefully, i will be able to.
that's what i've been waiting for.

i broke down during training on tuesday.
i guess the intensity of the training plus all the things on my mind.
seriously, it sucks.
sigh.

just when i thought that everything is ok, something else came crumbling down.
i am just wondering when my sister will change.
i spent alot of time during my long break dealing with this.
when i've actually intended to use it for some practice! ):

but anyways.
my neck is hurting like hell.
and i pulled my thigh muscles yest.
hopefully, everything will be alright tmr.

and the moment i cry is the moment when i show my weakness

i wish ...

2009-10-18T20:52:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i wish that there more than 24 hours a day.
or more than 7 days a week (more weekends, of course!).

there are too many things to be done in a day.
and i just could not finish them up!
assignments and essays.
trainings and working out.
and of course, time for family and friends.

more often than not, i spend the smallest percentage of time with the loved ones.
with my family, my mom gets the most attention.
my dad works till late and if he gets home early, he'll want someone to rant at, after work ):
my sis?
don even think abt it.
spends most of the time outside.
at hm, she'll be yakking away with her friends on the phone.

my best friends do not get alot of attention from me too, i guess.
at times, i'll be too busy to sms or give them a call.
i feel guilty sometimes.
cos i know that i am not a good friend, in this way.
my besties feel neglected as well ):

but then, i don get a just a simple 'How are you?' sometimes.
i feel that i am not important in my besties' life anymore.
that i am not really needed in their life.
sigh.

this weekend was the most sucky one.
a lot of quarrels happened at home.
disagreements between friends.

sometimes, i wish that i could just curl up and die.

the serious need for speed

recess week?

2009-10-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

well.
today is the friday of recess week.
the week went by soooo damn fast!
ugh.

but then, recess week feels more like assignments week.
clearing most of the assignments.
especially the group ones.
i really hate doing group work sometimes.
they can be quite shitty! ):

the week was filled with trainings as well.
the only thing i like about it.
since its about working out.
yey (:

ok.
back to assignments again.
shucks!

the need to be on par with the rest

Selamat Hari Raya (:

2009-09-23T12:24:00.002+08:00

Wishing all my muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya! (:
maaf zahir dan batin.
sekiranya ada terkasar bahasa atau salah silap, harap dimaafkan.

hari raya was good on the first day.
went over to the dad's side.
cos mom's side was at kampong.
ate ALOT!
but i managed to control myself from over-eating. yey!
came home at around midnight.
by then, i was already quite shag.
did not get any green packets at all!
ok, only one.
haha.
i guess others think that i'm prolly too old for that already.
oh. alot of the relatives, whom we've not seen since the last hari raya, thought that i'm the younger sis and my sister is the older one!
haha (:

the second day was spent at home in the morning and afternoon.
paternal aunties and auncles came to visit.
in the evening after everyone left, we made our way to my maternal aunt's place.
cos my grandma and the rest came back from kampong!
it was soooooo kecoh-rable! (:
all the small, irritating cousins were there.
everyone was there and it was quite fun!
though the noise was quite loud!
my favourite uncle gave me a green packet!
haha.
even though i told him i don want it, he insisted that i shd take it (:
asked for forgiveness from everyone and it was quite sad.
i still miss my deceased uncle ):

anyways.
after i came back from raya-ing on the second day, i stayed up to finish up on my ICT essay.
i aimed to slp at 2 am.
but in the end, i slept at 4am!!!
wth rite.
didnt even have time to revise maths.
tsktsk.
oh well.

okays.
i'm officially sleepy now.
and achy!
be back later!

back! (:

2009-09-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

i guess i went on a hiatus.
so i'm back! (:

not that i don wan to update, i was just feeling abit lazy and busy.
assignments are making me crazy (almost!) this week.
then, hari raya is coming.
so its busy-ness!
haha.

well.
i went for my (so-called) last training with the team on Sunday.
it felt good.
after being away for quite some time.
but i had to break the news to them.
that i will be leaving for awhile now.
cos i'm going over to the school team.
it was a sad moment for me, definitely.
and of cos, i teared. (lava called me an emo freak! haha)
sigh.
i shall not go on.

anyway.
i need to stop procrastinating!
its not doing me any good!
argh.
quick, lisa!
finish up all ur assignments!
if not, you can goodbye to Hari Raya!
):

okays.
i shall get back to doing some work.
updates sooon!

go run!

2009-09-04T13:11:00.002+08:00

well.
i guess if i have this bathroom scale, i'll prolly get this reading everytime i stepped on it.
which is quite cool, i think.
at least, it doesnt lie.

i was sooooooo desperate to see a number 7, instead of an 8 all the time.
so when i saw the 7 yest, i was quite happy.
but then, it is the fasting month.
bound to lose abit of fats.
hopefully, i can sustain this.
of course, there's a need to exercise too.
cos i wont be fasting throughout the whole year rite?

i guess, i'm just tired of being fat.
it's soooo hard to find 'the perfect fit' clothes.
then, the stamina level will be super low.
and makes me feel lazy all the time! ):

oh well.
i just have to work harder at not being lazy anymore.
it worked before.
so, i don see why i cant do it now.
i just need to stop procrastinating!

single? or double?

2009-09-01T00:36:00.003+08:00

when i look at the facebook profiles of others (friends from pri sch, sec sch and others), i admit that i feel a little bit envy of them.

why?

cos most of them are either engaged or getting engaged.
and me...
well, u know.

no, i am NOT desperate to get engaged or married, right now.
but i just cant help feel that i'm left on the shelf.
like a rag doll that nobody wants to buy.
cos everyone wants the Barbie doll instead.

i often wonder if i will be a spinster for the rest of my life.
and be dependent on family or friends.
who will get sick and tired of me cos they will have their own families and stuff.

oh well.
this post is solely for my musings purpose.
it has nothing to do with other ppl.
will blog again soon.
with a happier post.
good nite, peeps (:

birthday wish!

2009-08-24T21:26:00.004+08:00

i was thinking of not blogging today.
but then, i saw alf at woodlands just now.

so.......
this post will be dedicated to her.
because it is her birthday today!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Dear Alf! (:
may all ur wishes come true.
and may u be happy always!

seeeee...
told u i wouldnt forget.
i just purposely tease u the other time ;)

anyways.
first day fasting in school.
not so bad, i guess.
but three hrs break is just killing me! :(
i guess the library is now my shelter during long breaks.
heh.

okays.
i shall get back to tutorials again.
did i tell u that i've never liked being grp leaders for sch work?
tsktsk.

now i know how much i mean to you

Ramadan

2009-08-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

today is the second day of the fasting month.
i am very thankful that this year, the first day falls on a saturday.
so i don have to deal with tiring first day at school or smth (:

tmr is back-to-school day.
and luckily, my 3.30pm - 5.30pm class would not be materialised.
yey! (:
e-learning laaaa.
what do you think?
haha.
but at least, i won't have to rush and squeeze for the train/bus, and reach home at 7ish.
save me from cursing in Ramadan (:

okays.
i'm feeling sleepy now.
guess i will blog again later (soon)! (:

a loooong break!

2009-08-20T12:24:00.003+08:00

guess what?
i am having a 3 hours break right now!
tsktsk.
well, it is coming to an end.

i am currently rottting in the school's library.
not a bad choice of place. heh.
n thankfully, i got brought my laptop today.
so i don feel so dead.
wanted to do some readings and tutorial sheets.
but ended up not doing those things! ):

the second week of school is coming to an end sooon.
in about 5 hours? heh.
i love having no-school fridays! (:
well, i guess it's the day for me to catch up on my readings, tutorials and attempts to start on projects.
hopefully i'll get them done tmr!

i'm freezing in the library right now.
i didn't bring my jacket cos i'm always perspiring in school.
hot place, i know.
haha.

ok, i should get going now.
blog again later (:

what's the point in staying, if you are not needed anymore?

first week of school ...

2009-08-14T23:20:00.002+08:00

so i'm over and done with the first week of the school term.
not so bad for a freshie.
except for the times that i get lost walking around to find tutorial rooms.
and that happens almost everyday of the week!
haha.
never though i could be this noob.
tsktsk.

lessons were ok, for nw.
first math lect was abit tough.
with all the weird symbols.
but after the tutorial, i think i'm okay now (:
my resolution is to never fall asleep in lectures, to never skip any lectures and to participate actively in tutorials.
so far, i've fulfilled my own resolutions. yey!
(i guessed i just played too much in poly before. so i wanted to start on a clean slate.)

guess what????
i fell in sch yesterday!!
haha. wth rite?
it was super dark at the steep stairs area.
n i just had to miss the last steps.
almost fall face flat on the floor laaa.
tsktsk.
i wish i'm not so clumsy can.
i guess this is the highlight of the week.
haha.

i haven explored much around the sch.
places like the canteen, library n swimming pool are easy to find.
still get abit lost looking for the rooms.
places like the gym and others haven been looked into.
guess will go looking around on monday.

oh shucks.
just rmb that i have to submit an assignment in like 10 mins time!!!
will blog again later (:

excitement + nervousness = anxiety?

2009-08-10T20:26:00.003+08:00

so today is the last day for me to slack.
cos tmr is the start of a school term for me!
wheeee.

well.
i'm feeling excited.
but nervous at the same time.
i guess after two years of not studying makes one feel this way?
it's not so bad for tomorrow cos i wont be starting so early.
but its a day of 5-hour lesson, without any breaks!
hmmm.

just hope that i wont get lost in school tmr!
heh.

i cant help feeling like i'm second-class in everything!
a second-class citizen.
a second-class sister.
a second-class family member.
and worst of all, a second-class friend.

things change and people change too.
but i did not expect it to be very fast.
or was it because it has happened all along, but i was just to blind to see?

Harry Potter!

2009-08-07T17:32:00.002+08:00

so i managed to catch the movie on Wednesday.
the long-awaited episode! (:

well, what can i say?
i really love the movie!!!
read and heard some reviews.
that the movie was not very interesting.
but who cares?
i was totally caught into the movie.
heh.

no doubt, it was quite dark.
but then, it IS a dark episode for Harry Potter.
don't you think so?

the only disappointing part was that they never showed much about 'The Half-Blood Prince'.
a little contradicting to the movie title.

but nevertheless, i loved it (:
i cried reading the book.
and guess what?
i cried in the theater too.
the last part was sooooo emotional for me.
sigh.

i had always dislike Severus Snape.
but when he killed Dumbledore, i hated him!
gah.

Hermoine is prettier though (:
Ron, still a geek.
but a hot one, i guess.
since Lavender Brown could not get off him.
haha.

anyways.
i guessed i have pictured some of the scenes in my mind's eyes.
i think i'm just too much into Harry Potter that i could picture them.
oh well, it's no secret that sometimes (almost always) i wish that there's really Hogwarts and i could go there! (:

thanks for being there for me <3

my afternoon (:

2009-07-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

i spent my afternoon with the bunch.
i love them sooooooo darn much! (:

met alf n lava at cwp.
had lunch at mos burger.
den shahril came.
pei na came to join us after her remedial.
(tarmizi didnt join us. he has some future-family thingy.)

later, we went to swensens.
shahril was soooooo choosy with his food!
tsktsk.
peina had chili crab pasta (which is damn nice! i tried it myself), shahril had some bolognaise thingy and the three of us had Giant Earthquake!
yey!
we chose all the nice flavours! (:
but den, pei na just had to choose banana split and shahril chose thin mint.
and they tasted quite disgusting!
haha.
sorry babes.
but they really taste quite awful.
oh, there were some finger food to go along.

the food was just okay.
but what i really enjoyed was the company.
they made me laugh, with all the funny stories.
they updated me on what happened after i'm gone.
they made me abit upset with some upsetting news.
but i'm okay.

i really enjoyed myself today.
after not seeing them for 4 days on a sch week (5 for lava), i guess i really missed them.
but after meeting up with them, all the pangs of misses are gone.
i hope that we can meet up again sooooooon!
we still have not gone to Timbre, babes! ;)

anyways.
i'm feeling pissed off about some school stuff.
i really think that some organization are just super inefficient!
grrrr.

oh well.
i guess that's all for now.
will write again soooooon.
<3

p/s: just glad that mr fd is not angry anymore (:

goodbye, goodbye.

2009-07-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

so i bid farewell to hellington on Monday.
it felt rather good to be able to leave the place.
once and for all (:

however, every goodbyes has a sad tone to it.
(even though u hate the place!)
i cried for abit in class when i was saying my goodbyes to the kids ):
then this girl started shaking and I realised that she was crying badly!
her eyes were all red and puffy, and she was sobbing so hard.
i guess that my saying goodbye made her realise that miss lisa will be gone and wont be around in school anymore.
it was such an emotional thing, especially when they gave me a group hug!
(normally, i would not want to hug my kids unless the situation calls for it.)

i sat with the girls during the recess time and some of them looked really down.
one even said this: miss lisa, you are my best teacher. and now you are leaving me. i feel so sad right now. so i have no mood to eat.
gosh! at their level, they have already developed strong emotions.
(so, dont say that kids haf got no emotions. they just don know how to show it.)
some asked me funny questions like: miss lisa, can't you just stay here and study? instead of going away.
haha.

after school, i packed ALL of my stuffs.
it wasnt as sad as I thought it was going to be.
but maybe cos there werent anybody in the staff room, except for us and the trainees (the rest was down for oral exams duty).
after some time, most of them came back to the room.
by then, i was almost done packing.
i took pictures with the friends I made there (:
for memories sake.

oh!
fairus gave me a small card.
but what was inside touched me alot!
when i read it, i almost cried.

anyways.
some notes for the friends.

Dearest Lava,
I didnt noe that saying goodbye is going to be this hard.
and i didnt expect it to be harder on you, than me.
the fact that you werent around on Monday made it easier for me cos i did not have to cope with teary goodbyes.
but that does not mean that i am happy about leaving you.
i am terribly sad and i wish that i have the power to make you leave with me.
this is just saying goodbye to the place.
not to the friendship we had.
i will always cherish the times we spent together.
and am looking forward to more good times (:

Dear Alf,
I am quite honoured to hear that you miss me! (:
of course, i'm missing you too.
how can i not when i spent almost everyday irritating you? heh.
u said that its been quieter now that i'm not around.
but i guess, sooner or later, you will get used to it.
the friendship we shared will always be cherished.
and i know it wont just end here!
(kalau boleh, aku pon nak bawak kau skali. jadi kau takya suffer kat situ :) )

Dear Ah Bee,
I know you are missing me too! heh.
even though i got to know you later than the rest, I appreciate that you truly want to be a friend.
like you said, i am a graduate from the place cos I managed to survive for a year.
well, I guess you can do it too!
try to think happier thoughts and ignore all those bitches!
if possible, I would want to take you away too.
like I would for Lava and Alf.
since all of you have suffered much more than me.
but I wont forget the good times we had.
and I would want more of these times to come! (:

Dear Nana,
I am missing you, just like I am missing the rest (:
I hope that whatever you have to do, you will take care of yourself.
kerja tu, kerja jugak. tapi takkan sampai sakit teruk kan?
anyway thanks for all the good times.
i'm sure our friendship doesnt just end here.
even though ur a married woman, that doesnt mean we cant meet up once in awhile rite? heh

Dear Pei Na,
I hope you are missing me! heh
now I cant hear your voice everyday.
even though we went through some rough patches, I hope that all the unpleasant memories would be forgotten.
thanks for being a true friend to me (:
i really appreciate that and all the good times we shared together!
Well, i do hope that our friendship would not just end here.
i am waiting for more fun times together! (:

Dear Kak Ida,
i rindu you seh!
i harap you rindu i jugak eh. heh
thanks for everything!
and if you invite me to the dinner, i would go!
really.
tak bedek (:

Dear Fairus,
dont be sad ok?
i am missing you tooooo! (:
i wont ever forget you laaa.
jgn laa sedih. nanti aku pon nak nangis jugak ):
anyways thanks for being a fren to me.
i reali love the laughter!
like i said, the friendship will not end just cos i am not there anymore.
it will still go on, for as long as you want it.
soooo let's meet up sometimes! (:

i am thankful for the real friends i had at the place.
even though there were trying times when i was there, these are the ppl who were there for me.
consoling me. making me feel fine. letting me know that i will make it.
and i know that now that i am gone from the place, my absence will be felt.
but i am sure that they are not letting me fade into the backgrounds, just like that (:

and for the record,
i love you people! (:

food!

2009-07-23T21:50:00.003+08:00

so i decided to cook abit for the family today.
since everyone is fasting.
but quite sad that my dad could not make it home for breaking fast, since he is still at work (even now as i am writing this).

i tested out two dishes.
the first is ....

black pepper beef!
so the picture do not really look appetising.
but this is my sister's favourite dish!
she likes anything black pepper (:
the outcome was not as bad as i thought it would be.
in fact, i think it tastes quite fine.
not so bad for my first attempt on this dish.

the next one is ....

cereal prawn!
been wanting to try this out for a long, long time.
i dunno why but i really love this dish, right from the first time i tasted it.
again, the picture shows my lack of culinary skills (hah!).
the results did not turn out the way i wanted it to (the restaurant-style) but at least, i managed to get the taste quite right!
just a point to learn: next time, i have to stir-fry it till it becomes really dry.

so there.
i cooked two dishes today.
n they are edible! (:
i'm glad that i made it this time.
i guess i'm just not cut out to cook dishes like lasagne or u-mian.
haha.

well.
my mom is a great cook (though she thinks she's just average).
so i guess the benchmark for passing is really, really high.
it's just that when i cook inedible food, it's such a waste to throw them out.
and just the thought of not even a single person wants to touch the food, really demoralises me.
but mom told me to try and never give up if i really want to cook nice food.

and i shall not give up (:

sigh

2009-07-23T09:13:00.003+08:00

i think fd is upset with me ):

was supposed to catch Harry Potter with him tmr.
then, told him that i had to cancel with him.
to go out with the wtp bunch.
since it's a farewell lunch.

and he got upset.
cos he was actually meeting up his frens.
he cancelled just to catch the movie with me.

i feel super guilty now.
especially when he does not reply my sms-es.

argh! ):

anyways.
my dear hamx is leaving me for Japan tonight!
i'm soooo going to miss her la.
how i wish she can just pack me off with her!
haha.
hope u haf fun babe!
don forget to eat all the sushi for me!
<3

and soon, the wish will come true ...

clumsiness

2009-07-20T20:35:00.004+08:00

had a quite unfortunate happening today.

i slipped and almost fell in the toilet this morning!
(at home. not at the workplace)
almost, but still my foot is aching like crazy now.

even though i did not fall, my foot hit against a floor divider.
so the bone is really hurting now.
and there's a not-so-small bruise right there.

boohoooo ):

it's quite painful to walk properly.
cos i cannot step fully on the floor without wincing.
sigh.

anyways.
something i'm looking forward to.
this week is the last week that i am at the workplace!
yey-ness! (:

and wrapping things up is always harder than opening them up...

Inspired!

2009-07-15T12:13:00.004+08:00

i feel inspired!

to go on a mission.
a mission named Operation Half-a-Lisa.

haha!

after watching 3 full seasons of The Biggest Loser (and currently on the forth one),
it just amazed me what losing weight can do to people.
i realised that it is not just about losing weight.
it also helps one to gain their confidence, build up self-esteem and giving life to them.
the whole process is not just about changing the physical aspects, but mentally as well.

being fat for many, many years (and still am), i totally understand how these people feel.
when you are fat, you will automatically be the butt of jokes.
others will call you names and what nots.
some people will make nasty comments like: eh don't jump! ur going to make a hole on the floor!
going through all these sometimes demoralised me.
but lucky for me, i am quite a confident person so i tried to not let these ppl get to me so much.

i know that i am not as heavy as those who appeared on the show.
they are usually at least more than 100kg.
but i am still fat (or obese in Singapore's standard) and have to do smth abt it.
it is just amazing how those people work very hard for the body that they want.
from non-exercise liefstyle to hot bods and healthy people.
and less than a year later, ta-da!
they're wearing outfits in sizes smaller than i am wearing right now.

and of course, looking at the trainers on the show just makes me want to lose all these excess baggage on the spot (if possible).
my idol or inspiration would have to be Jillian Michaels.
i know that she was not born with the body she has now and that she worked really hard for it.

so right now, i made a pact with myself.
to lose weight.
not just to look good physically, but to feel good at the same time.
and to not let others make fun of me anymore.
i'm just tired of being fat and wants a change.
i know i can do this.
and i will! (:

there's no more turning back

some pictures

2009-07-13T23:46:00.003+08:00

I took this picture awhile back.
it was on a rainy day and i thought, why not take some pictures?
i turned off the flash and the pic was taken at ISO - 800.
i don know why but i particularly like the way this picture came out.
maybe cos its just not how i see it everyday.

taken on the same day.
my cat, sayang.
out of the four cats, he's the only brave one who likes to sit outside the house when it is raining.
decided to capture his posing moment.
picture was taken in B/W mode and at ISO - 1600.
another one that i really like (:

anyway.
didn't know that i'm such a hot stuff at the workplace!
everyone (almost) seems to haf smth to talk abt me.
like the non-existent fact that i went out with this disgusting guy at the place.
this is just one of the stories that have been made up.
oh well.
what can i say?
i'm just tooooo irresistable for them! (:

it's time for me to find my way back home

2009-07-10T23:03:00.004+08:00

well, i don't know about you.
but to me, i feel that the more i wait for smth, the longer it seems to take to happen.

at least, there's like only twenty days left for me.
yippee!

but i have to admit that in the midst of my being happy (to leave) and excited (abt sch starting), i am making some ppl upset.
i guess that lava n nana will be the saddest that i am leaving?
nana mentioned it to me today (again) that she's going to miss me.
i had a quite emotional MSN conversation with lava over this yest.
sigh...

i started to bring some little things back home today.
i'm trying to de-clutter the table i had been using for the past 7 months.
but it seems that there are just tooooo many things for me to pack.
i'm intending to throw some of the things, so i do not need to pack and bring it back.
at this point, i'm just lost for words ):

on a lighter note, CONGRATULATIONS lava! (:
on getting the confirmation letter!
i can see a treat coming this way!
(though i still owe u one. heh)

okays.
i shall write again.
soooon (:

a note to lava:
babe, i just want you to know that whatever it is, we are always going to stay as best frens.
nothing can change that.
i promise that i will make time to go out with you, even if it is just lunch ok? <3

was the happiest day

2009-07-08T13:19:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the happiest day in my life, at hellington that is.
haha.

there was no contact time!!

i was very grateful.
cos i really feel that this thing only happens like once in a lifetime?
haha.

and ...
there's nothing on today after work too.
so i'm going home!
yey (:

anyways.
i'm not really packed up to leave.
i know that all i need to do is dump everything into the dustbin and go.
but somehow, i feel that this whole process is going to be quite emotional for me.
not that i LOVE the place or what.
but its the ppl who are going to make me cry.
ok. stop.
i shall not go further.

till then.

2009-07-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

at times like this, i wish that only happiness exists in the world.
i hate sadness or unhappiness, for that matter.
it gives you the feeling that you are alone, empty, upset and what nots.
but then, that is how i am feeling right now.

and let me tell you, it sucks.
truly.

and in order to leave, i have to stay for a little while ...

2009-07-04T08:07:00.002+08:00

saw rawaidah yest!

goodness, i miss her so much.
we are nt meeting up.
cos she's on super-saving mode. heh.
but we always "meet" when we bump into each other.

saw her in cold storage yest.
just after i bought chwee kueh there.
after contemplating for sooooo long. heh.
she bought two dumplungs for her mom (i miss her too!) and then, she bought the same thing as me as well after some thought.
haha.

and guess what?
the chwee kueh is DAMN NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
super nice, i tell u.
definitely going back for more.
i only bought 5 pcs cos i thought no one at hm would eat it.
but den, my mom ate most of it!
haha. she usually doesnt eat these things.
so, am glad she liked it. (:
i am sooo going to get it again! heh.

and sometimes, it's better to just shut up....

2009-07-01T08:27:00.002+08:00

i HATE hellington.

and to tell u honestly, i've never felt sooooo much hatred for anything else before.

wait....

i think it's not hate.

it's loathe.

and somehow, 26 more days felt like 26 long years ...

the bookworm within

2009-06-26T19:18:00.002+08:00

my current read ...

i read his first book, Tuesdays With Morrie.
due to reviews about it being good, nice and all others.
after reading it, i find that it IS nice and captivating.
there are lessons which can be used for our daily lives.
so i got hooked.
and just had to get this second book.
am still reading it.
i love it! (:

i want it sooooo bad, it hurts

bleugh

2009-06-24T13:06:00.002+08:00

came down with stomach flu yest.
and trust me, it is not the greatest thing ever.

i kept going to the toilet to vomit my guts out.
i kept coughing non-stop.
the thing i hated the most.

felt abit better today.
hopefully, i will recover in time for the race!

err..

2009-06-22T21:15:00.002+08:00

so thanks to the flat tyre, i had to get a new one.
right?

wrong!

i got four new ones! haha.

apparently when we (mom & i) went to the shop to change one tyre, the guy told us that we have to change all four.
cos its been awhile since we used the car but did not change them.
he showed us that our tyres are abit worn out and could be dangerous.

so we decided to change all four tyres.
just den, the guy asked if we wan to change the rims.
we told him not for nw and he just showed them to us.
after some coaxing on his part and thinking on our part, we decided to change that too!
haha.

so now i've got new tyres and super nice sports rims!
i sooo love it.
the only downside is i feel sooooo much poorer now.
haha.
but the good thing abt the shop is that they give discounts.
cos aini recommended them to me.
not bad.
very fast service.
plus, they throw in free things too.
heh.

anyways.
just heard it on the news.
no school closure for next week!
woohooo!
you might think that i'm crazy.
but after seeing the amount of work we had to do to prepare, i'd rather school opens next week.

okay.
feeling abit flu-ish now.
shall go rest! (:

he's just hot! maybe even hotter than the weather (:

argh!

2009-06-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

just had a flat tyre.
first experience.
quite sucky.

the tyre almost burnt out!
wth!

a nail got stuck to the tyre.
in addition, just before that, i discovered that some stole the cap for the tyre tube.
so stupid!

ugh.
i'm praying that this will not happen anymore.

it's here!

2009-06-19T21:26:00.002+08:00

well.
the moment i've been waiting for is here!!!!!!!
yey!!!

i've finally gotten the official letter.
which i've been dying to get.
omg!
it's such a happy occasion for me!

and there's just no proper words to describe how i feel right now (:

small world!

2009-06-17T17:08:00.003+08:00

omg!

i just discovered that Khairi (the one from NCC Air) is alfiah's brother!!!!!!

haven seen him in donkey years and saw him that day.

no wonder he was at the wedding!

haha!

let's all sing this:
it's a small world after all,
it's a small world after all,
it's a small world after all,
it's a small. small world.

2009-06-16T12:34:00.002+08:00

well.

i am still feeling upset right now.
more than before, actually.

it really got me thinking.
you just cannot depend on your supervisors when they mentioned that they will help.
cos in the end, i have to help myself.
and the whole waiting process is killing me.
literally.
all i can say is:
I HATE THE PEOPLE THERE!

anyways.
RSM set up this NCC Associate Members Scheme.
i was supposed to go down with the rest last week to attend the meeting.
but i was not able to.
so, i added myself to the Facebook page cos haza asked me to.
and guess what happened?
they send me back an email asking me to send a so-called NCC resume before they can add.
what kind of a joke is this?
i've been in NCC long enough and i wanted to help out of my passion for it.
but they need a resume before they can add me?
this is really ridiculous.

so there.
i am as upset as i can be.
too many shitty things are going on around me.
this sucks.

but anyhow.
i forgot to mention.
alf and jo got married last weekend.
went for the dinner and it was fun!
she looked so pretty in that even prettier dress. heh.
oh. she even sang the song 'lucky' wif jo!
so romantic.
i guess everyone in our clique would wan to haf that as the wedding song.
hah.

i will be uploading the pics soon.
pics from penang too.
only when i don feel like i'm a total wreck anymore.

i wish that i can just go away

speechless ...

2009-06-15T12:12:00.002+08:00

been sometimes since i last blogged.
the reason being there was too many things, too little time.
hah.

alot of things happened.
like i was reprimanded.
for smth that was not really my fault.
cos a bitch in the workplace just made a big hoohaa out of smth small.
den i was reprimanded. again.
a week later.
for smth that i did not do.
and the thing is i was not even informed about it!
of cos, these two incidents involved my bestie at work tooo.
the head is always picking on my bestie.
like wtf rite.
i hate that place!

but den, i went to Penang this year for the race.
woohooo!
two years since the last one.
this time we brought back a 'tau sar piah'!
(in other words, a bronze. hah)
had lots of fun there.
but the weather was too hot.
i came back looking all dark, almost black.
haha.
we kept on gulping down the cheng teng there.
it was damn nice, i tell u!
okays.
lots of pics n videos.
still have yet to upload them.
do that in awhile k?
heh.

anyways.
my current feeling now is UPSET actually.
i'm waiting for a certain letter to come my way.
and it is still not here!
it is sooooooo torturing and driving me crazy!
two other people have gotten the letter that i wanted.
and to think that we are under the same supervisor.
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm feeling super upset now.
i've got no other words to describe it now.
and the worse thing is there is a so-called deadline.
apparently after receiving the letter, i haf to sign smth which needs to be done before this saturday.
this has got me soooo upset right now.
sigh.
the more i think about it, the worse i feel.
i feel sick!

argh!

and i'm tired of being the last to know

cats (:

2009-05-07T12:14:00.002+08:00

well.
now i truly believe that you will experience a good thing after doing smth good.

i had a crazy morning yest.
was in a rush.
n it was raining like mad!
my dad says dat he can't send me to sch.
cos he's nt feeling well.
so i decided to take a cab since i was already running late.
waited for the blooody cab for 30mins but it was all "BUSY".
grrr.

so then i decided to drive to sch.
when i was about to drive off, i saw my carpark cat!
n it was purring and meowing for food.
it looked so hungry and sad.
i didnt have the heart to leave it just like that.
so i stopped n gave it food.
i saw it chomping down the food when i drove off.

i reach sch in like 10mins.
n when i came, the head wasnt even there to do a temperature spot-check!
yey!
n i was fretting abt it cos i was going to be late.
heh.

so i learnt this.
when i do smth good, smth good will happen to me (:

aside from this,
my cat, Cici, was soooooo extremely cute yest!
i was marking the atrocious compo on the coffee table.
Cici was sleeping on the sofa.
i had a small cup of water beside me.
just after i got up to get smth, she jumped onto the table and guess what?
she drank the water from my cup!
haha.
it was really cute.
n she drank non-stop!
my cup was full when i left and when i made the discovery, the water level has gone down to 1/4.
that was how thirsty she was.
it was funny and cute at the same time.
she made me laugh at a depressing time.
heh.

now you why i love cats?
(:

I want some ZZzzz!

2009-05-05T12:36:00.003+08:00

havent been blogging for awhile nw.
been abit busy, i guess.

well, alot of things happened.
not-so-good things happened in the workplace, of course.

the most outrageous one was the part when they thought i was going to get engaged.
to this super annoying person, no less.
then suddenly, stories like i always eat lunch with him.
or wait for him.
or go out with him came out.
n i swear i had never even thought of doing those things.
it was such a revolting thought!
ewww.
urgh.
bleagh.
but anyhows, i tink i managed to scare the gossipmongers away.
cos i declared: WHICHEVER IDIOT WHO STARTED THIS, I SWEAR I'LL DO SMTH TO HER!
so it stopped.
thank goodness.
i just ignore that annoying person now.

let's see.
what else happened?
hmmmm...

okay.
right now, i can't recall them.
haha.

went for PA race two weekends ago.
was given a chance to row!
with the mixed team n the 'old-timers'.
yey!
it was really a good feeling.
to be able to row n to row with them.
we (the girls) had a meaningful talk with each other.
n at one point, it really made me cry.
it was about our coach.
cos Doreen was saying that maybe he puts in more effort in coming down for trg den the rest of us.
he was almost gone last year when he was out in the sea with us.
due to his health n cholesterol level.
he was hospitalised in ICU for a few days.
but den, he came down for trg the day he was discharged!
so at this time, alot of us cried.
cos of the fact that we almost lost him.
and the fact that he was very committed to the team.
so i made this promise.
not only to myself, but also to the team.
I will come back n train regularly.
to prove my worth.
to earn back my seat.
n to row with the team! (:

these days, time was spent in sch.
or at trainings.
or at home.
it feels like i have no life!
zzzzz.
was at training last thurs.
den talked to eunice and felicia.
eunice told me abt her new workplace.
she said GV heaquaters.
so den felicia said: WHAT? YOU WORKED IN A BROTHEL?
hahahahah!
dat was damn funny man.
eunice gave her the face.
i tink felicia needs to get her ears checked out.
heh.

anyways.
was quite scared by one my kids this morning.
she came late to sch.
so i wanted to reprimand her.
she came to me n cried.
n guess what i saw???
both her cheeks were so red!!!
its so obvious that she was slapped.
she really scared me.
i asked her what happened and she told me this:
i didnt learn my Chinese spelling properly.
so i didnt wan to come to sch.
cos i dont wan to fail.
but my mother forced me to come to sch.
den she beat me.
her cheeks were swollen, by then.
so i sent her to the sch counsellor.
she was counselled and was abit better at the end of class.
i feel so sorry for her.
i almost cried when i saw her this morning.
i cannot understand why the mom still sent her to sch after slapping her.
is the kid smth like a trophy?
sigh.
someday if i haf a kid, i would try my best to educate and raise him without abusing him physically :(

Well, i can't really wait for the weekends now.
even though it seemed quite far away.
haha.
i'm feeling abit off-colour.
but MC is out of the question.
too many things to be done.
so weekends will be the time to rest.
yey!
cant wait!

okay.
i tink this post is abit too long oreadi.
shall write again soon.
in smaller pieces.
more frequency.
heh.
ciao (:

Purple Day?

2009-04-14T17:19:00.003+08:00

as usual on tuesdays, we have to stay back longer then usual.
some people came.
so we had to be in our 'best behaviour'.
had to dress up abit.
n guess what?
the guy was just in pants and shirt.
not very formally dressed, i would say.

but anyhows.
i chose to wear this purple dress i got from cotton on.
comfortable n fuss-free.
realised dat lava chose a purple top too.
n then, we saw that so many people were wearing purple too!
so spoiler.
n the best part is, even makcik wears purple.
a matching top and a skirt.
goodness!
i tink she shopped the day before, just for this.
so lame.

i just feel like cringing at the thought of her wearing purple.
just like the rest of us.
zzzz.

okays.
i tink i'll end here now.
write again!

Hair-raising issues!

2009-03-29T10:46:00.002+08:00

am having a debate as to whether i shd chop off the tresses.

it is longer now, of course.
just want to cut it off abit.
but am afraid that it will curl out!

maaaaaan.
i cant decide.
hah.

anw i'll be turning 22 in two days!
it doesnt feel like i'm older though.
just the same old me.
maybe, it's a good thing.
den i wont look soo old.
heh.

okays.
that's it for now.
hope my knee will be ok sooooon!

pissed!

2009-03-23T20:39:00.002+08:00

someone pissed me off at the workplace just nw.

it was this "auntie".
were having a meeting.
then she said this:
why must chunk the whole paragraph together?
can bring the other lines down?
so I responded: u want it to be one sentence for one line?

and guess wat?
this auntie just totally ignored me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF.
and to think, I commented three times.
at last, she said: why not make it one sentence for one line?

I was boiling like mad at that point of time.
decided to keep quiet.
not make a scene.

when others were talking, she was busy discussing stuff with another.
and then when she talked, she TOLD everyone to listen to her!

so WTF.

so glad I didn't have to face them for a long, long time after that.
if not, I guess I would have just shouted in her face.

wanted to either gym or swim just now.
but then, I didn't.
sigh.
knee is in pain.
recurring pain.
had never lasted so long before!
hope it'll just go away soooooon .....

A New Beginning

2009-03-20T22:51:00.004+08:00

so i've moved.

do not ask me why.
i just feel the need to.

a new blog.
a new beginning.

the used-to-bes will not be forgotten.
but it will be buried deep inside.

just one wish.
that more happiness will come this way.

p/s: do let me know if u want me to link u.