back! (:
04 November 2009
was on hiatus.

busy with assignments n all!
had 3 presentations in 3 days.
2 essays due.
and 1 test!

argh.

almost died.
but i managed to survive.
i still need to stay alive till friday!


anyways.
disappointment sets in once again.
i failed the test that i was sooooooooooooooooooooo expecting to pass.
i had a good feeling abt it (even after i sprained my ankle).
when i saw the results on monday, i felt like crying.
even though the tears wont come out.
i felt like my hopes are dashed.
i dunno if i still want to do it again.
or not.





no pain, no gain aye?

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 10:15 PM


the stinging feeling in the eyes...
22 October 2009
this week has been quite a hard one for me.
despite the fact that there was a holiday on Monday.

tmr is the day that will determine whether i will be able to change the course.
hopefully, i will be able to.
that's what i've been waiting for.

i broke down during training on tuesday.
i guess the intensity of the training plus all the things on my mind.
seriously, it sucks.
sigh.

just when i thought that everything is ok, something else came crumbling down.
i am just wondering when my sister will change.
i spent alot of time during my long break dealing with this.
when i've actually intended to use it for some practice! ):

but anyways.
my neck is hurting like hell.
and i pulled my thigh muscles yest.
hopefully, everything will be alright tmr.




and the moment i cry is the moment when i show my weakness

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 3:55 PM


i wish ...
18 October 2009
sometimes, i wish that there more than 24 hours a day.
or more than 7 days a week (more weekends, of course!).

there are too many things to be done in a day.
and i just could not finish them up!
assignments and essays.
trainings and working out.
and of course, time for family and friends.

more often than not, i spend the smallest percentage of time with the loved ones.
with my family, my mom gets the most attention.
my dad works till late and if he gets home early, he'll want someone to rant at, after work ):
my sis?
don even think abt it.
spends most of the time outside.
at hm, she'll be yakking away with her friends on the phone.

my best friends do not get alot of attention from me too, i guess.
at times, i'll be too busy to sms or give them a call.
i feel guilty sometimes.
cos i know that i am not a good friend, in this way.
my besties feel neglected as well ):

but then, i don get a just a simple 'How are you?' sometimes.
i feel that i am not important in my besties' life anymore.
that i am not really needed in their life.
sigh.

this weekend was the most sucky one.
a lot of quarrels happened at home.
disagreements between friends.

sometimes, i wish that i could just curl up and die.





the serious need for speed

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 8:52 PM


recess week?
02 October 2009
well.
today is the friday of recess week.
the week went by soooo damn fast!
ugh.

but then, recess week feels more like assignments week.
clearing most of the assignments.
especially the group ones.
i really hate doing group work sometimes.
they can be quite shitty! ):

the week was filled with trainings as well.
the only thing i like about it.
since its about working out.
yey (:

ok.
back to assignments again.
shucks!



the need to be on par with the rest

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 11:02 PM


Selamat Hari Raya (:
23 September 2009
Wishing all my muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya! (:
maaf zahir dan batin.
sekiranya ada terkasar bahasa atau salah silap, harap dimaafkan.

hari raya was good on the first day.
went over to the dad's side.
cos mom's side was at kampong.
ate ALOT!
but i managed to control myself from over-eating. yey!
came home at around midnight.
by then, i was already quite shag.
did not get any green packets at all!
ok, only one.
haha.
i guess others think that i'm prolly too old for that already.
oh. alot of the relatives, whom we've not seen since the last hari raya, thought that i'm the younger sis and my sister is the older one!
haha (:

the second day was spent at home in the morning and afternoon.
paternal aunties and auncles came to visit.
in the evening after everyone left, we made our way to my maternal aunt's place.
cos my grandma and the rest came back from kampong!
it was soooooo kecoh-rable! (:
all the small, irritating cousins were there.
everyone was there and it was quite fun!
though the noise was quite loud!
my favourite uncle gave me a green packet!
haha.
even though i told him i don want it, he insisted that i shd take it (:
asked for forgiveness from everyone and it was quite sad.
i still miss my deceased uncle ):

anyways.
after i came back from raya-ing on the second day, i stayed up to finish up on my ICT essay.
i aimed to slp at 2 am.
but in the end, i slept at 4am!!!
wth rite.
didnt even have time to revise maths.
tsktsk.
oh well.

okays.
i'm officially sleepy now.
and achy!
be back later!

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 12:24 PM


back! (:
16 September 2009
i guess i went on a hiatus.
so i'm back! (:

not that i don wan to update, i was just feeling abit lazy and busy.
assignments are making me crazy (almost!) this week.
then, hari raya is coming.
so its busy-ness!
haha.

well.
i went for my (so-called) last training with the team on Sunday.
it felt good.
after being away for quite some time.
but i had to break the news to them.
that i will be leaving for awhile now.
cos i'm going over to the school team.
it was a sad moment for me, definitely.
and of cos, i teared. (lava called me an emo freak! haha)
sigh.
i shall not go on.

anyway.
i need to stop procrastinating!
its not doing me any good!
argh.
quick, lisa!
finish up all ur assignments!
if not, you can goodbye to Hari Raya!
):


okays.
i shall get back to doing some work.
updates sooon!

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 11:03 PM


go run!
04 September 2009
well.
i guess if i have this bathroom scale, i'll prolly get this reading everytime i stepped on it.
which is quite cool, i think.
at least, it doesnt lie.

i was sooooooo desperate to see a number 7, instead of an 8 all the time.
so when i saw the 7 yest, i was quite happy.
but then, it is the fasting month.
bound to lose abit of fats.
hopefully, i can sustain this.
of course, there's a need to exercise too.
cos i wont be fasting throughout the whole year rite?

i guess, i'm just tired of being fat.
it's soooo hard to find 'the perfect fit' clothes.
then, the stamina level will be super low.
and makes me feel lazy all the time! ):

oh well.
i just have to work harder at not being lazy anymore.
it worked before.
so, i don see why i cant do it now.
i just need to stop procrastinating!

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 1:11 PM


single? or double?
01 September 2009
when i look at the facebook profiles of others (friends from pri sch, sec sch and others), i admit that i feel a little bit envy of them.

why?

cos most of them are either engaged or getting engaged.
and me...
well, u know.

no, i am NOT desperate to get engaged or married, right now.
but i just cant help feel that i'm left on the shelf.
like a rag doll that nobody wants to buy.
cos everyone wants the Barbie doll instead.

i often wonder if i will be a spinster for the rest of my life.
and be dependent on family or friends.
who will get sick and tired of me cos they will have their own families and stuff.

oh well.
this post is solely for my musings purpose.
it has nothing to do with other ppl.
will blog again soon.
with a happier post.
good nite, peeps (:

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 12:36 AM


birthday wish!
24 August 2009
i was thinking of not blogging today.
but then, i saw alf at woodlands just now.

so.......
this post will be dedicated to her.
because it is her birthday today!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Dear Alf! (:
may all ur wishes come true.
and may u be happy always!

seeeee...
told u i wouldnt forget.
i just purposely tease u the other time ;)





anyways.
first day fasting in school.
not so bad, i guess.
but three hrs break is just killing me! :(
i guess the library is now my shelter during long breaks.
heh.

okays.
i shall get back to tutorials again.
did i tell u that i've never liked being grp leaders for sch work?
tsktsk.



now i know how much i mean to you

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 9:26 PM


Ramadan
23 August 2009
today is the second day of the fasting month.
i am very thankful that this year, the first day falls on a saturday.
so i don have to deal with tiring first day at school or smth (:

tmr is back-to-school day.
and luckily, my 3.30pm - 5.30pm class would not be materialised.
yey! (:
e-learning laaaa.
what do you think?
haha.
but at least, i won't have to rush and squeeze for the train/bus, and reach home at 7ish.
save me from cursing in Ramadan (:

okays.
i'm feeling sleepy now.
guess i will blog again later (soon)! (:

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 11:25 PM